Sometimes we need to walk away

Day 4
So much of negativity around me
That surrounds me
That creates me
That destroys me

Hatred around me kills me slowly
You may dislike but never hate
Hatred creates negativity
Hatred is an overrated concept

Killing time in the negative delusions
Waiting for the endless to wake
Thoughts control your wicked imagination
No more of negativity i can take

And i will walk away from you
Against the law of nature
I am full of positives
While you are my contrary
Opposites must attract
But it repels me away

Out of luck

Day 3
Years of emptiness
Ten days of happiness
Wish those days were never over
Wish it was forever

I wished for the emptiness to wither away
Instead you walked away like the rains
Nowhere was i at fault
No one i blame

The mystical power eludes me
Destiny defines my life
When i thought i was luck was on my side
I was moving towards the other end of the shore

I should have known
I was draining my power
Moving too fast
I was running out of luck

On the couch

Day 2
Sleeping on the couch
Watching the box
It makes me an idiot
Or thats what i was taught

It never made sense
It never had to
It was just a medium to kill time
When i wanted to

Sleeping on the couch
Looking up through the transparent view
The blue sea of air is clear
So are the questioning thoughts in my mind
Searching for an answer
Life's biggest question
Who am i?
A special person or
Am i just another guy?

You would never answer
I could never find
The answer to the question
I turn onto my side
And i continue my impendable task

Sleeping
Snoring
Dreaming
On the couch

Start to finish

Part of the 30 day 30 poetry
Day 1

At the start it felt so lonely
None could i see
None with me
Empty roads
No goals

My life missed a soul
Saw came n walked besides me
Mild breeze blowing her hair
Thought i was not lonely anymore

Well i was wrong just like before
From the start to finish
Walking through the path alone
I know i always will
People come and go
While we stand still

Walk alone

Walk the path alone
If you are right then
People will follow you
Careless for their opinion
This world is filled with people
Having shitty views

Walk the path alone
Trust in the treachorous souls
None guilty until proven so
You are not guilty until your conscience tears you in two

Fall down on the ground
Stand up by yourself
Without any help
Walk away as if nothing happened

Walk alone
Hope for the best
Hope is the end
Drive away the fear within
Put in all your efforts
Cause it matters more

The paths we choose
The things we do
The friends we make
The Descision rests in you

Options are many
Choices a few
Path you choose
Actually defines you

Walk past you

We walk back to the days
We never knew eachother
Just so that we can forget
The times spent together

Stranger
We walk fast
We walk past
Exchanging glances
Ignoring the presence

I sense a discomfort in me
Donno whats in you
I sense a urge in me
To go and talk
Clear my mind
Off these confusing thoughts

I never wanted to ignore you
To be ignored by you
I dislike ignorance
All of it remains a game
Dont want to stand a fool
Open my hearts out
While my words are ignored
You keep calm
And i loose my cool

The moment our paths cross
A flashback arrives
The beautiful days gone by
Never expected this day
Put my head down in dismay
Walk past you

Travel away

I am waiting at the airport
For the plane to land
Kept apart for so long
Delay i dint want

Reading a novel in the lobby
Kept looking at the clock
Impatient for her return
Wanted to look at her

She chose to travel far
Be away from us
Attachment she dint want
She chose to keep quiet

Want to talk my hearts out
Cant muster the courage
Thought i could look at her
Even if she never spoke for ages

Confusion due to her thoughts
I chose to ignore
Could cut off my thoughts
But not the relapse

She was like drug to me
A drug to make me smile
I was too addicted to her
Rehab became my only home

I left that place long back
Now i am back to the shore
Kept looking at the waves
Crashing at my feet
Imagining the dream that i saw
My dream that she was in

Jealousy part 1

Lost in the crowd
Locked in her thoughts
Overthinking
Playing in the Devil's playground

Walking through
Dont give a damn
Running through
Cant watch them stand
Infront of her

She hates me
Cause i am close to him
She is too blind to see
He wont cheat

Stubborn like him
Ego clashes
Staring at each other
Waiting for him to wink

She accusses him
Of crimes he dint commit
She loves him
More than anyone else
She cant stand him
Talking to others in her abscence
Possessive she is
All is good but within limit

Jealousy overtakes
Lines are crossed
Shattered hearts
Abuses galore in their talks

Memories

Thanks for all the memories
Thats all i have now
Now that you have gone
I cant stand these cold days of my life

As the time trancends
On our cryptic soul
I have no regrets of my own
All these days
i lived with a hope
You will be back

Long ago
I had a fear
Now it is true
You are nowhere near

Wish time could freeze
When i kissed you in the park
Held your hand in the dark
Strolled with you down the road

You ceased to communicate
I tried to speak
I am trying my best
Not to wait
Move on with life
With your memories by my side

As time goes by
I will move on
But these memories will remain
Memories i cherish

An irony called life

Summer is gone
Leaves fell on the ground
Autumn made me feel
Orange is my life

Winter arrived
People as cold as the weather outside
Broke my trust
Shattered my pride

Problems never leave
Optimistic you have to be
Your concern are constrained
Tend to a cypher
Iota of others'

You call yourself a man
Even when you cant face your soul
You surrender so easily
And expect respect in return
Living this irony called life

Running away from the truth
Acting like a coward
Run all the world around
But you will have to face this
Irony called Life

Dream of Darkness

The final journey eludes my soul
All my life seems a dream
Everyone is tight asleep
Swimming in their dreams deep within

Travelling alone
Darkness all around
Pioneered every skill
To survive this dream

A light called me
Showed me the path
Promised me heaven
Walked in to the trap
Made me believe my dream is reality
Imprionsed in hell
Tearing the walls
Cutting through fence
Unknown force inspired me
My strength remains a mystery

Still living in the dream
Something i never imagined
My world never seamed
So dark from within

Darkness sorrounds
Shadows disappear
Eternal bliss awaits
In the Dream of Darkness

Obsolete

Unraveling the mysteries of life
Sprinting through the void of time
The light is way behind
A new luminous enthralls

Burdened under your baggage
Hurt by your sudden vanish
Where art thou?
Obsolete you are

Deserve no forgiveness
Grudge no solution
Sins amassed
Absolution i give you
Obsolete you are

I am running away from the burden
A gift unwanted
That pulls me back
Into the infinity of the world
Towards a new life

You can never leave me

Running away from the truth
Peace of mind you seek
Come to me
I am all that you need

Let me enter
Show you your dreams
Turn you blind
Takeover you
Control you

I fulfilled your wish
You saw stars in your day trip
The universe at your feet
Hallucinating your illusions
Empowering your imagination

Show me your loyalty
Cause nothing comes free

I demand my price 
I am all you ever wanted
I am your God
You can never leave me

As you enter my quicksand
Struggle to come out
The more you move
The more you seep in

Wanted to run away from despair
Ran into me
You regret meeting me
I forgive you your sins
But you can never leave me

Your thoughts are my puppets
Your hatred is my effect
Try to run away
My clutches are too strong
I will pull you back
You can try to ignore my presence
But you can never leave me

Betrayl

Hope for the best
Expect the worst
Run for victory
Skip the hurdles

Love all
Trust blindly
Until the sword of deciet
Cuts through your back

Empty the gun
Keep the bullets
Lookout for enemies
Expect betrayl from all

In my abscence
In my presence
Betrayl is all i got
Together you changed my thought

I stand alone in a crowd of souls
Black are their hearts
And with thoughts so impure

The views of the past
My broken trust
Follow me haunt me
Waiting for me to rust

My belief so strong
Now all gone
Its only me who has to complete the journey
Open the rusted lock
A lock without a key

Shedding skin

Without my eyes i can see
There is insanity
In your heart
Deep inside your mind
You dwell on cruelty

In your arms i want to be
Stay still for eternity
Feel the warmth
Feel the love
Lay my heads down
Sleep with peace

Your vanising act
The broken pact
The sudden silence
Your subtle absence

My intutions
Nothing but true
I sensed the waves
Caught off guard
Too late to retract
Where do i go?

Attached strings to me
Toying with my emotions
Pulled me back
Clipped my strings

Wish i could flush out all the stress
Walk out of this sludge
Wish i could shed my skin
Break the chains
That shackles me from within

Square one

Dreams blown in the wind
Hopes dashed away
Memories is all i gained
I am back to square one again

Playing the game
Never to win but for the joy
Live the moment
Abstract tears i cry

Drop me
Break me
Shatter me
Cant steal my memories from me
The reminisace of your oasean face
Amidst the desert of my state
Nothing but a mirage
Brings a smile on barren appearence

Rational thinking i never did
Irrationally on the highway i speed
Riding on my hope and dreams
They dashed and blew with the wind
Nothing did gain except memories and pain
And i am back to square one again

Destroy me

The depth of my sorrows
Beneath my smile
The happiness i search
In the smallest thoughts

The fortune of luck
Seldom i had
I am not afraid
I am just a stone
On the edge of the mountain
Waiting to roll down
Waiting for your push
To destroy me

Destroy me
I have faith in you
Kill me
I live my life for you
Destroy me
I am all yours
Kill me
Cause i am nothing without you

Rebel against all
Stand by one
When the one leaves you
Just stand alone

Loner
Seeker
Forsaken
Taken for granted
Smoke drunk
Stoned
All i need is to forget
A pain called you

Just cant come to terms
Reality fails me
I always longed a friend
Ignorance is all i gained

Too drunk to answer your questions
Too sober to tell the truth
All my efforts were in vain
You destroyed me once again

Gasping for life

Silence is killing me
Ignorance is torturing
Mediocrity of the people
Unleashed upon me
The deceptive steps of your kin
Put in awful position
Defending against all
Respecting your descision
Confused
Depressed
Sad
Holding the tears inside
Faking a smile for the world

Owe you a thanks
For all the memories
The moments with you
All my firsts and all my pains

Once i did see my dream in your eyes
You went about telling all
That my dream was a lie
Trust me
I was never hurt
But your ignorance has left me
Gasping for life

Wish you could stay

Blame you
Abuse you
Thats something i cant do

I opened my door
You entered
I tried my best
But could never enter yours

I aint hurt
Just sad that you could
never understand me
Wish you could stay

My texts were nothing but words for you
For my feelings you turned blind
You ignored me as much as you could
I tried to talk my hearts out
But you never understood
I tried to ignore your ignorance
I wish that i could
At the end you cleared my confusion
Told me the bitter truth

I wish that day when it all started would have never had come
But then i think sometimes life gives you a lesson

Wish there was something real in whatever you used to say
Wish you could have stayed

I wish i can be strong
To swallow the fire
And still stand and say
Pass me another one

Trip

Hovering over this earth
Some place far beyond
Into the eternal valleys
Over the green fields

The orange ball inspires me
The serene mist
The cold breeze
A place beautiful as home

Red fluid flows
Blue it was
Slow music
Once it flowed

I jump from the cliff
Into this serenity of thoughts
The water turns blue
Into the sky i flew

On the road

Your silence
Spoke what u thought
Your ignorance
Made me feel like a fool
I saw everything
I understood all
Prefered to ignore these signs
Tried all that i can

The swallow in the sky
Flies high
A free bird for all
Trapped in the mall

I will stay still
Like a rock on the hill
And when you call me
I will avalanche to you

I long to be
What i was before
I long to see
The real you
You keep hiding from me

The statue on the road
Directs me to go
On road that leads away from you

The faint light in the distant house
Guides me on my way
The only hope that i have left

Patiently i sit on the crossroad
Pondering where to go
To wait for you
Or walk on the road
That leads me away from you